Angst, expectations, happiness, sadness
My feelings are fighting all the day inside me
And also during these long asleep nights
Somethings I am a hero
The main time I am only a lady in distress
But, where is my charming prince?
I overact in the almost situations but all is hidden
Nobody notices it or I think so
I have a wonderful shield: my smile.
I was surprised when someone wrote in my wall
“Oh, what a smile, I am happy you are all right”
No! I am not!
This is only a disguise! Can't you see it?
In those strange cyberspace times,
When the friends I left behind in my old life
Have become mere shadows
And my friend
I have a lover for a long time.
This lover is neither a man nor a woman.
My private torturer likes to dance with me on cliffs.
I am scared but it doesn´t care.
I feel those arms along my body,
Tighting strongely,
Cutting my breathing.
I want to shout for help,
But I can´t realize me.
We have met when I was eighteen,
Our romance have lasted only a pair of months
But we returned,
Over and over
Months became years.
Our passion drained my body,
My hair, my nails, my skin.
Finally I lost my sanity.
Drugs, legal drugs were my friends.
Doctors told that all was in my head
Really?
After th
Angst, expectations, happiness, sadness
My feelings are fighting all the day inside me
And also during these long asleep nights
Somethings I am a hero
The main time I am only a lady in distress
But, where is my charming prince?
I overact in the almost situations but all is hidden
Nobody notices it or I think so
I have a wonderful shield: my smile.
I was surprised when someone wrote in my wall
“Oh, what a smile, I am happy you are all right”
No! I am not!
This is only a disguise! Can't you see it?
In those strange cyberspace times,
When the friends I left behind in my old life
Have become mere shadows
And my friend
Gems By Lamplight #07 by ReaderByLamplight, journal
Gems By Lamplight #07
Welcome to the first entry of 2016 of "Gems By Lamplight" ! The way is led by nabitibi (https://www.deviantart.com/nabitibi) and his engaging POV riding shot : also on offer in this feature are one of RMSalem (https://www.deviantart.com/rmsalem)'s latest wonderful linear artworks, luzmela (https://www.deviantart.com/luzmela)'s evocative capture of a Bavarian chapel, memories of Christmas with Stechyto (https://www.deviantart.com/stechyto)'s magical lights at dusk, and two contrasting visions of spirituality (harsh and intense with Narholt (https://www.deviantart.com/narholt), airy and serene with CitizenFresh (https://www.deviantart.com/citizenfresh)). Following are klapouch (https://www.deviantart.com/klapouch)'s powerful storm in the city, romainjl (https://www.deviantart.com/romainjl)'s soulful skyscraper, Taurtirith (https://www.deviantart.com/taurtirith)'s achingly beautiful wintry landscape (also critiqued), mydarkeyes (https://www.deviantart.com/mydarkeyes)'s decaying and defiant castle, and Spinatstrudel (https://www.deviantart.com/spinatstrudel)
I don't understand where time is in such a hurry to go. It's your birthday again! And I hope it's a happy one! I hope you get candles and song and your favourite cake!
(I will come back to the online world in summer. It's a lot right now. x') )